Simplicity.

Today has been and will continue to be a good day. Peaceful. Woke up early, went shopping. I bought Delilah some clothes that she desperately needs, a candle for myself and a birthday card for my Dad. I wanted to get him one from Delilah as well but I couldn't find a Grandpa birthday card. Grandpa; My Dad, with his grey beard and reading glasses. I love him more than I think he really knows.

Last night was my birthday dinner. We went to Outback, as we always do. We talked about the baby, his job and fishing. He was shocked to hear that I still love to fish. It's funny how most, if not all of the things I enjoy are just little pieces that I have taken from my parents...I wonder what Delilah will take from me. I ended the night with tears in my eyes. I miss my parents. Gone are the days of seeing them every day. Bitter-sweet life.

This afternoon I decided that I want to buy a farm. I know I could be happy this way. Room to breathe, organic produce and animals to love, not eat. I went exploring and I found a lot of happy faces, horses and a secret road that I desperately wanted to drive down. If only my car didn't hate dirt roads. Someday.

That seems to be the mantra of my life these days, 'Someday'.